21

Almost 2 weeks ago I turned 21

Honestly, I love it but at the same time it makes me sad

Turning this age you realize you don’t have the risk of getting caught drinking underage or not being able to go out with everyone to the clubs and bars because you’re not of age yet.

There’s allot of hype being 21 but after that you’re just..An adult now

Revo

Honestly, on my birthday I realized that being 21 now, I’m a full on adult, I’m not a boy anymore (technically) so I have to start looking after myself and seeing what I want to do with my life because I’m just getting older now. In other words, time to start reaching some goals.

On my birthday everyone that means something to me showed up, I thanked everyone for coming, I thanked everyone that has once helped me for everything they’ve done for me. I did nothing but give thanks. My birthday should of been about me and it was all about me but I made sure to make it about everyone else too because some of the people that showed up have really helped me through so much in my life. I give thanks to all those listening ears and crying shoulders I’ve had to lean on, not many people even get that.

Lisa <3

My loves, Jayme Chace and Paige <3

Mom <3

from left Michale, Amanda me and RJ. Loves <3

Being 21 reminds me of how I wish I was little again. about 10-12 you get that feeling of how you wish you could go back to being innocent and playing on the playground with all your friends and just not giving a care in the world but it also makes you realize how far you’ve come and the age you’re at and what you’ve accomplished and what you’re yet to accomplish.

Talofa <3

Taylor <3

joseh <3

The pictures could go on and on, go on facebook to see more. facebook.com/piecesofjameson

I feel like new meat on the market from how everyone acts when I go out but I’m not new to this game so I’ve slowly been learning my limit to drinking what to do and what not to do when I go out because Vegas is just way too fast paced to be slow and patient with these experiences and people to let a disaster happen. I’ve been g0ing out so damn much that my throat was hurting like fucking hell the past 3 days. I feel allot better this morning but fuck, all that partying for a week straight really does catch up, just saying.

It’s been a wild ride already but most importantly everything has been going great. I’m starting completely new this year when it comes to everything. My conscious is clear, I’m single, I’m moving forward in life and I don’t need anyone or anything holding me back or putting stress on me this year. This year, it’s gonna be all about me because I know I need time to myself to experience life and everything it has to offer. Everything happens for a reason

Black Rain

I’ve come to the conclusion that no matter how mature you are there will always be a part of you that isn’t fully mature yet that takes experience for that part of you to grow..

The reason why I start by saying that is because coming from experience in a relationship I realized allot that happened that I did was out of just flat out stupidity because it wasn’t that I didn’t care what so ever because I really did care but I feel like sometimes you know something’s wrong but don’t think much of it because you tell yourself you’re not or you won’t ever be a certain type of person to do something but without realizing you get put in a situation or spot where you aren’t thinking straight or might just not have enough self control or control a situation at all and end up slipping and falling on your ass by whatever you do. Maybe it’s something you did, somewhere you went, maybe even something you said etc.

What I learned from this though is that some of us really are just weak when it comes to certain things and it takes experience sometimes to really slap you in the face and make you hurt and realize what you’re doing and how severe something you did or said could be to someone else. Everyone has feelings and a set way of thinking and if you don’t know how to coincide or cooperate then you’re just going to clash like a mother fucker.

If the person you’re with can get through things with you and help you see light and help you fix up a problem and forgive you for the shit you do, they’re fucking worth it. If instead they end up changing and breaking because of a problem then you’ve now realized what and who that person really is because of how they’re acting and what they’re doing and they really aren’t worth your time, you always want someone that’s going to bring the best out of you and not just think of their own feelings and how they feel but you want them to realize you have a problem and help you fucking fix it, not push you to the ground again or leave you there. If someone isn’t willing to treat you correctly or love you for you and love you for some of your flaws and see that you really are trying to change or have made changes then they’re not worth your time personally.

People don’t even know themselves or aren’t ready for something serious and if that’s the case then the relationship isn’t going to go anywhere. If you’re not completely happy then you shouldn’t settle for less because that’s all you’re gonna get.Sometimes you’re not the one and you have to accept that and move on.

I’ve just come to realize that all of us have issues and personal problems and need to be alone to re-evaluate ourselves before jumping head first into anything or making someone else deal with our shit or stupidity. I think you have to really look into the future and see if you could really see yourself with this person 5 years from now, forever or long term, however you’re comfortable seeing it. If you’re just fucking around and fooling around with people that’s your buisness but this post is mainly for those that are or have ever been serious about relationships.

The hardest part of everything is the fact you remember everything you did together, the happy times, where you went, that’s what kills you but all in all I really have realized that SOMETIMES, time doesn’t heal all it just makes the scar deeper. Some people can get over shit but others just really can’t and that gash will always fucking be there reminding you everyday to never make the same mistake again or to never get with someone like the last person..

“it all boils down to one quotable phrase, if you love something, give it away”

-Bright Eyes

everyone is beautiful even at their worst, it’s fascinating and to meet people even those with issues because it’s great to actually be able to try and help them and build something together and see where they might be fucking up at and hey, that might be the love of your life if they let you in to help them.

I see problems for what they are, everyone has the ability to do that we just choose to ignore it and keep running away from our secrets and problems and if that’s the case, keep em and keep running, eventually you’ll stop running and they’ll hit you like a bus, then you won’t have a choice. It’ll be like putting salt on a wound so better to confront your problems head on then run from them. Just saying

All I have to say to end this, is that, I really learned allot this year and have taken things allot more serious then I already do. I apologize whenever I hurt someone but I refuse to continue to blame myself for the way someone is becoming or acting because of something I did or said. You have to know who you are before accusing someone of something. If you’re not strong enough to hold your ground, stand up and take shit, then you’re not strong enough for a relationship you will just always know how to carry yourself and that’s as far as you’ll ever get..I thank everyone for the good I have learned and what they’ve done for me.

These 2 songs nail my feelings

Quote of the Day

“I don’t wish you the best of luck and I don’t wish you the worst, I don’t wish you anything, just picture yourself in an empty room in dead silence. That’s what I wish you, nothing. Because I don’t want wrong done to me or coming my way and I don’t want good done to me unless I deserve it. I don’t want a guilty or angry conscious anymore because of what I have to say or do say because my mouth is my biggest fucking weapon. It’s best to just not say anything to avoid any further conflict or negative energy, I just want the pain to slowly fade and move on..”

Yours truly

Ephemera

Bonding with Ephemera

So today was a big day for me since I went out and decided to purchase a Ball Python. To be honest I had been planning to buy one as soon as I got the money, to buy all the things I was going to need for it since a snake is very high maintenance when it comes to taking care of one.

You really have to be responsible when taking care of snake since you need to do so much to make sure it’s healthy happy and comfortable in it’s captive environment. I made sure to read all about them before getting one. lol

In case everyone is wondering what Ephemera means: Ephemera means something short lived or a type of memorabilia or collectible item

a snakes prey doesn’t last long when it suffocates it and not everyone owns a snake so I took it as something rare to have so I decided to name her it not to mention it’s a character in one of my favorite video games.

Bloodrayne 2: Ephemera

I know it might sound crazy but there were nights I couldn’t sleep because of how bad I wanted one. I really don’t understand what it was that triggered me to really really want one, it was mainly what a snake symbolizes and how they work that just fascinates me but to go as far as getting one is kind of extreme for me since Meow Meow has been my life for the past 3 years and continues to be my life lol. The only part of this I’m dreading is the frozen mice part..Having to thaw them out and fed em to her is tough cause I love all animals of any kind.

A snake is one of the oldest dated symbols even dated back in the bible when Satan came to Eve in the garden of Eden as a snake and tempted her to eat the forbidden fruit.

A snake symbolizes control, intuition, good luck, divine power and are always associated with some spiritual presense. Which makes sense that when a house is haunted you need to get rid of any snakes in the house because of the fact that any spirit will join with the snake. The serpent in general is a very powerful creature. Snakes normally only attack when they’re hungry. If you have a quick tempered defensive snake such as a burmese python then yeah I’d be scared of getting bit because those type of snakes don’t fuck around. A ball python is as noble of a snake as it gets to have. Snakes are extremely smart when it comes to encountering people or animals, they won’t eat anything that weighs more than it and will almost never attack a human just alert it to get away or it’ll run away. Like any dog or cat or any animal, if you don’t provoke them to harm you, they won’t.

What a Ball Python looks like

A snake is like any other animal they’re just a little more upfront about feeding because of the fact they don’t have any fucking hands or legs to reach they’re prey so they have to unfortunately suffocate it AND THEN eat it. It pisses me off when people think snakes are gross because of how they eat but if you think about it, just because your chicken in the freezer is cut up doesn’t mean you’re not eating something a snake would it, they just have to eat it as a whole.

Now lets talk about me getting one

So, I bought one on the 23rd of December, for starters, 23 has been the number I see EVERYWHERE all the time and has been a number I see and have payed attention to seeing around for the past 3 years now. So getting a snake on the 23rd of this month is a bit insane, I feel like it’s a sign and like there’s something I need to know about the fact of me getting as snake on the 23rd. Snakes bring important people to your life and good luck so maybe this is my luck? I don’t know, might just be wishful or silly thinking but it only makes sense that there’s a reason why I got one and why I got it on the 23rd of this month if 23 is pretty much my number.

Here’s a symbol that makes allot of sense when it comes to me

23 DAY NUMBER

The 23 Day Number person likes to experience everything in life.  If told ‘NO’, the 23 person will do just the opposite. Highly affectionate and easy to be with, the 23 Day person is witty and has a gift for communication.  Beware of temptations  -  drugs, alcohol, too much food, sex, gambling etc.
The 23 Day Number person is a socially popular energy.  As children they never sit still and are into everything.  They can be exhausting to watch when young.  They can excel in many different fields in their lives and are good at fixing problems others have given up on.  Those born on the 23rd excel in any job involving communication.

The people can be the most negative of the 5 vibration and these people may misuse freedom dangerously.  They can be very self indulgent where sensuality is concerned and it is also often to do with drink, drugs and gambling.

Snakes work like a team with people, since they can only see things or just heat patterns they can be guided and they will guide you as well, that’s where their intuition comes into play and yours as well. It’s a matter of energy exchange and vibrations that’s what makes having a snake so fascinating it’s like you feel it.

So yeah, I’m sure I’ll keep finding reasons as to why I wanted a snake as bad as I did and what it will bring.

So far, Meow Meow fucking hates her and tried creeping up on her when I had her on my bed exploring. It’s gonna take some getting used to for her since she’s a bitch and knows she’s Queen of the household but she’s gonna have to learn that there’s another HBIC in the house lol.

So that was my adventurous day of shopping and buying snakes for the new house.